Some kind of book review: The Solitude of Prime Numbers.

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I’m late to the party of hip books and trends in general. The reason that I post this is not that I want to deliver a terrific review of great importance to the world. Although this post marks a huge milestone for me personal. That one little person in the world, that is me, was able to read a book. ‘Is that such a big deal?’, you may ask. It certainly is, not in the greater picture but let me explain.

 

As a child I used to read everything. Of course books  come to mind but I enjoyed reading at the breakfast table too. I read all the cereal boxes and milk cartons. I was that kind of a reader, an escape artist in my own mind. This love – or need – to read was replaced by music later on. I needed to read for school but to study books brings a different kind of joy to reading. Reading with the purpose to master the knowledge presented does offer an escape too, just a different kind.

 

When I remembered my love for the written word, I was estranged from it. There was a barrier between my mind due to lack of joy and lack of cognitive abilities and the pleasure of reading. That may sound strange but just to cope with ‘life’ took everything I had, every resource. I bought books, made plans to read them, especially in summer. The books waited for me, they are just that kind and patient. I talked about reading books, in therapy and to friends. ‘I want to read but what if the book ends?’ What if I may feel that emptiness again? I didn’t want to be lost all over again and be on the lookout for the next book. I wanted a steady supply with endless possibilities to relax. I began reading and stumbled upon the subject of child abuse. That was not the plan. I read another book and it was so good that I couldn’t start another one. I did eventually and I struggled. I wanted to read! But the book was just bad and it took me so much effort that didn’t want to give it up. You know, I wanted return on investment. It took me a while to forget about that book without feeling guilty.

 

With the isolation during the pandemic that we are living through at the moment, I made my ‘big’ decision.  I would read, if not now than when? I started with a simple and easy to read thriller in Dutch. Pierre gave it to me and I gave it a go. It wasn’t that good but I noticed that I could read. (I was still afraid being confronted with my depressed brain with no attention span.) The font was big enough and the plot wasn’t complicated. I managed to finish it.

 

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Now I was ready for ‘my’ books, the ones waiting for me, the one that moved with me from my apartment to my new home. I chose the ‘Solitude of Prime Numbers’ by Paolo Giordano. We follow the lives of two people who are a bit peculiar in their own right. The girl struggles with her body what we see described in her relationship with food and the boy does self-harm. It is not a classic love story, not at all. The two people you read about have their families and their past. They are connected but at the same time they struggle with that connection. The question would be ‘What it is to make a true connection with ourselves and with other people?’ Can we calculate or understand what that connection is or are we doomed to end up as prime numbers that do belong in the world of mathematics but have their own particularities?

 

I am proud that my brain is able to finish a book while my body is able to relax while reading. I see this as a big step forward in my recovery. I’m planning to write maybe more reviews in the future as I can add ‘reader’ to my identity. It feels like I’ve found a big piece of me, like a kid that finds a treasure on the beach.

 

Thinking about books I like to read a common threat is appearing, which I’ll quote from the book:

“Choices are made in brief seconds and paid for in the time that remains.”

― Paolo Giordano, The Solitude of Prime Numbers

 

Have you read this book and what did you think about it?

 

 

Notes and further reading.

 

The solitude of Prime Numbers – Paolo Giordano on Goodreads. 

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19 thoughts on “Some kind of book review: The Solitude of Prime Numbers.

  1. No I’ve read this book but it looks like something I might read. I haven’t managed to pick up my Kindle yet either, despite the fact that I’ve recently bought and downloaded half a dozen.

    Perhaps that’s what I need to do, lol. Well done to you in actually picking up a book and being able to read it. Stay well and keep reading my lovely. Caz x

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    1. I find reading helps me to calm my mind and gives me something to do in the house while resting. Although it takes some energy and concentration. I take more naps due to that. We need to try to adjust with all means necessary 🙂
      I hope you enjoy your Kindle! Take care and thank you for commenting. x

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  2. I’m so glad you’re at the place when you can read again! Reading is such a pleasure for me, too. I also enjoyed this book. I had this sense of purity, vulnerability and protectiveness – mixed with a bit of apprehension, even fear, as I read it …. Definitely different, and one to recommend 🙂

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    1. I’m glad you liked the book too, it is a special one I agree. I’m over the moon happy that I’m able to read again, it is a true milestone and gives me a lot of pleasure 🙂
      Thank you for passing by and commenting 🙂

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  3. I am so happy you are able to pick up your love for reading again. When you have brain fog, doing something joyful such as reading, is so difficult. I love the quote you have shared. wonderful post Kacha!

    I haven’t read this book but it sounds great! Happy reading x

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  4. Yay! ❤️ this makes me so happy for you! I haven’t read this one. Just tried to find it on the library app that I use and they don’t have it. May have to look it up on kindle.

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    1. Thank you so much! I’m very happy too and it makes the whole lock down at bit easier. I hope you find it and if not I’ll post some other ‘reviews’. But we may have a different taste in books, who knows 😊

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      1. I’m currently reading “Funny you don’t look autistic” by Michael mccreary
        He’s a comedian, pretty funny

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  5. I haven’t read this book, but it sounds intriguing.

    That “ending” element of reading can be tough to deal with. If a book is good, I sometimes wish to finish it faster, but if I really enjoy it, reaching that ending is a small loss. I sometimes think that’s why I read so much. I struggle to accept loss in life, so perhaps by plunging into it over and over in the fictional world, I’m trying to slowly acclimate myself to it.

    Ok, and on a lighter note: I nominated you for a Sunshine Blogger Award! Thanks again for starting me off with this award. I figured it was time I sent the light back to you. 😊

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    1. That is such a good interpretation. I struggle with loss and endings too. Maybe that is why I can’t let go of a good book. When it’s finished, it feels so ‘definitive’.

      Thank you for the award! It’s been a long time I’ve done one and it is a fun way of blogging. I accept! 🙂

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  6. I’m definitely adding this book to my list! I loved the way you wrote about it, and I relate really strongly with how you used to love reading as a child, and over times, things began to change. I’m glad you’re getting back to it now 🙂

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